There's a reason behind my madness yesterday

Okay, so I went to the Wasatch mountains Sunday to drive around a golf cart and watch Rob's family play golf and I got a few pictures, but I ended up getting sick on the 9th hole (so I think I was feeling out of sorts yesterday because I was getting sick). The bumping and jarring ride on the golf cart had to have played in with upsetting my tummy. And i got a headache from the gas-powered golf cart. Most carts are electric but in the mountains, having a gas-powered one is better to use with the mountainous terrain.

So anyway, after the nineth hole I went back to the car and napped for a bit (like I said, I'm always tired) and then I had delightful dry heaves until they finished their remaining 9 holes. When I got home at about 7pm or so I went straight to bed. And then I slept until 6:45am the next morning and was able to get up and go to work - thankfully. I was worried I'd have to call in sick and I don't want to use any sick time except for doctor appointments.

But here's some shots of the Wasatch Golf Club, which is up in the mountain dells, west of SLC. There were wild turkeys (the males were in hiding so pictured are the females) and they ran across the practice field.

And there's a couple of shots showing the colors changing - but they're not as vibrant as they are back home. It also kept trying to rain, clouds circled around us but it never really rained.

6 Weeks

Mood: cranky :(

Cravings: none

I'm 6 weeks along in my pregnancy today.  The only changes I've begun to feel are almost hard to explain.  My moods have certainly been effected.  I'm feeling a little out of sorts with things today.  I have a big day ahead of me with Rob's family up in the mountains and all I can say is that I don't feel myself.  I'm feeling irritable, tired and unsociable.  And in turn, that makes me feel bad for Rob that he has to put up with my potentially pissy attitude.  I think he knows it's the pregnancy but that doesn't make my attitude okay.  It's very hard feeling this negitivity and not being able to shake it.  I just hope that the mountain air and being outdoors will alieviate all of this.  I don't want to spoil the day for Rob mainly, or for myself.

Other effects the pregnancy so far are having on me is that my boobs are H-U-G-E!  They've grown a cup size at least and they're feeling constantly sore and full.  That's the milk ducts preparing themselves - why it happens so early in the pregnancy I have no idea.  But I have a book called Mayo Clinic's Guide to A Healthy Pregnancy and I've been reading the hefty volume on what to expect.  And I've beel lucky so far to not really experience some of it.  My only prominant ailments are backache, tender breasts, exhaustion, and very occasional bouts of abdomenal pains (the uterus is stretching to accomidate the baby), and equally occasionaly bouts of an upset tummy.  I'd liken it to morning sickness, but I don't feel nauseated as much as I feel just that my morning meal - even if it's bland cereal - somehow isn't setting well and makes me feel sick.

It could be worse -  I could be totally puking my brains out but I'm not (yet.)  Plus, my boobs can always be bigger - which I'm sure they'll sadly get there one day.  

As for sleep, I don't get much of that either.  That's probably why my mood is lacking in good manners.  But I hope that whatever keeps me tossing through the night (oh! other than the extremely crazy dreams I've had.  Which I'll probably start blogging those too) will end soon so that I can really get back to enjoying my sleep.  It's one of my favorite things to do and since I've started having the minute symptoms of pregnancy I've not slept well.

But here's a look at all the good to the pregnancy.  First, Rob and I will be able to have a baby.  Something we both thought impossible with his track record alone.  Rob has lovingly dubbed me Fertle Mertle for my ability to conceive.  He's also been so sweet and attentive to me.  I'm so grateful to have him by my side.  I love him so much that he's with me through this.  And he's just as excited and happy as I am that we're having a baby - maybe even more so at times simply because he always thought he'd never have his own.

I can't continue on with the more happy side of all this.  Rob and I have to go to the mountains to meet up with his family.  Hopefully I'll get some worthwhile pictures of the changing leaves to post.  

The countdown to my first doctor's appointment is 18 days to go.

I'm going to be a daddy!!!

I'm very excited about becoming a father. Even though I have an adopted son who is now 15 from my previous marriage, this is very different. I was told a couple of years ago that it would be difficult for me to have my own children (5% chance). I accepted the fact that I would probably not have my own children and started to plan my life without kids. When Heather told me the news, I was not scared or "freaked out" in any way. I was very happy and proud. I love Heather with all my heart and I am absolutely thrilled that she is having my baby.

A Baby Is On the Way!

Well, for those who have gotten the private invite to get updates on my pregnancy, here's where you can look to get details of how my pregnancy progresses. I don't have to tell you all that this is my first baby so I am pretty scared about the whole aspect of becoming a mom.

I think to myself "I'm too young to have a baby, holy crap!" And then I remember that I just turned 25 on September 12th, and that I'm not a worry-free 19 year old. It's easy to forget your age sometimes I think.

Anyway, so I'll be 5 and a half weeks tomorrow. Not many changes going on that I'm aware of or that I can feel besides the tiredness has already set in. No morning sickness, which is a relief but I'll let you know if that develops next week as it seems the pregnancy articles I've been reading commonly say morning sickness starts in the 6th week.

For now, here's a confirmation of my pregnancy. I took a picture of the test I took last week when I was just 4.5 weeks along.